In your heart, you made a choice to denounce all the things I did. No matter what I did, no matter what I said, you were not satisfied, even things as simple as not knowing your favourite drink. You chose to push me away further and further everytime I got closer. You chose to test me because you did not want to trust me. In the end, you ultimately chose to give up. No one understands from being told that he does not understand. He will understand when you tell him about it. You're right, I really don't understand what you have been trying to do. Since you have made the decision, it will stand as of now on. You're old enough to understand the consequences of the decision you have made.